So it is time for a little change. As you know five years go I delivered twins who totaled 13 pounds 13 oz. I gained 55 pounds all out front. I then had Weston 22 months later who was 8 lbs. 10 oz and I gained 45 pounds all in my stomach. If you need and a reminder of what my stomach looked like pregnant with the twins you can see that here.
For five years now I have had loose skin that just hangs over my pants.
Warning..pics below aren't pretty. You have been warned.
Always a treat to tuck your skin into your pants. Since my abdominal muscles have separated they are really weak, and the muscles I do have are protruding out. Doing abdominal work at the gym isn't comfortable.
At the gym doing certain moves where my shirt may ride up I try to avoid. I would like to be able to wear certain types of fabrics and not be worried if people are staring at the skin that hides my belly button. I would like to not freak out if Makenna lifts my shirt while riding in the cart at Trader Joe's for the whole world to see my stomach. I just want to look like I did before I had kids.
I have wrestled with plastic surgery wondering, "What will others think?" "Am I being vain?" "Is this sending the wrong message to my daughter?" I was going to have this surgery two years ago and then canceled the appointment. Canceled out of fear.
I have friends who have had mommy makeovers and it has inspired me. They went for it and are happy with the results.
Bottom line at the end of the day, how do I feel? I want to repair my stomach back to how it was and that means a tummy tuck. I am nervous and anxious, but really excited about it.
I am an open book just like I was when we did IVF for our twins. So I am going to be blogging about this journey. I can't help it.